Yes, you were a hard landing..

 

awkwardly tripping and falling over something ... my right wrist was twisted as I went down and hit something ... maybe the bed frame

... thats my mouse wrist and I find it only hurts when I move it a certain way, lifting a water bottle can be a little painful ... my lip was busted so much so I have a blood hematoma on the inside and nasty round bruise on the outside left bottom lip ...

my left knee hit the hardwood floor ...

I think about the time my left elbow did too...

both swollen and feel broken

and bruised (probably worse by tomorrow) ...

ugh ...

so much for soft landings ... :(

Relaxing Weekend ...

is over, damn it! The teen spent most of it with her friend at their house, so I got a break I so desperately needed. Now its Sunday and while discussing what happened the last 3 days over this bus situation it appears that the teen is still being obstinate about riding the bus. She says its lame and there are skanky stinky people and she is afraid of getting lice ... and scabies and God forbid she could get the bubonic plaque or some other horrifying disease... OMG ... she would rather walk than ride the bus! The school is way out of walking distance, but oh well ... I guess she'll have to get up earlier and hit the road. I told her to make sure she took an umbrella as it might rain on her! LOL Her case manager is coming tomorrow and there has got to be a plan worked out. I am not driving this kid to school when she can ride a bus! I told her to swipe her some body spray under her nostrils to sniff, stick her headset in and mind her P's and Q's and ride the frickin' bus. She isn't anybody special. However, you know how it is parents get penalized if they children are truant. Oppositional Defiant Disorder at its finest. God! she drives me nuts.

a day of weeping yesterday and today ~

 

Yesterday I remember those outstretched arms of a 6 year old child who wanted nothing to do but hug her mommy back from her first day of school running towards me when she was snatched up by a heartless father who hated me more than life itself, and scowled at her, carting her off crying.  Moments like that cuts the very soul and while I type this I still cry.  sometimes it doesn't matter the years ...  they were all standing there like it was a big celebration, a victory, a victory of what? taking a child away from its mother who never did anything wrong except love her?  She was never abused, I wasn't an addict, an alcoholic, unfit ...  I felt like I had just died, and emotionally I knew my baby girl would too.  I never did a damn thing but love my baby ... she was bought and paid for.  Lies made up to cover the truth and a lawyer who also has a reputation for taking womens children away from them.  The damage irreparable despite my having her every weekend and any other time I could.  I hated myself that I couldn't stop him.  As an adult, my baby girl has a list of psychiatric diagnoses a mile long and is currently taking meds.  Hell belongs to him, and I'm sure they are reserving him a suite.

Today I get a phone call from my oldest daughter weeping uncontrollably about her son.  The adoptive papers were filed and her and her husbands' parental rights revoked.  She wailed to me, crying, such hopelessness, and I too on the other weeping end knowing first hand that pain of losing a baby child you love oh so very much.  However he will be around for his sister to see living in the next county and will still have visitation with his grandparents and his sister.  He will just be raised by a wonderful foster family.  Daughter cries over the moments she doesn't have with her children, and I too know that all too well ... heartbreaking.  This news befalls on her birthday today.  Her life is totally different, drug-free, but she is 3,000 miles away.  I told her that one day he will come home, and so will her daughter, Isabella that I am trying to raise.

the bright spot in all of this ... oldest daughter is pregnant ... a total surprise.  Maybe there is a silver lining here somewhere in all the turmoil we have gone through as a family.

August is hell.  I just want to go to bed.
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First Day As a Freshman

and what a grouchy bear to get up!  I was thinking she might not make it, and did voice she didn't want to go, but admitted she was scared.  I told her she had nothing to worry about, and everything would be fine.  Said she liked her teachers and her schedule, especially Science.  She had a good day, I was happy for her.  I had hoped she would.  :) 

~ how time flies by indeed~ 

Spending time with my littlest Love!

sweet baby Tay I call her ...  who will be turning 2 years old in September. She is just the sweetest most pleasant child.  I like to take her to the park to interact and play and run free! She isn't in daycare so she misses out being around other kids. She would say 'hi' to everybody, but especially loved watching a gang of little boys flitting about. She seemed to be totally fascinated and would squeal and follow them around! She has a brother but he's too little to run around yet at only 6 months old! :)  I love hanging out with my little granddaughter, she is now losing her baby fat, and talking up a storm ... anything you say she can say better! :) and getting those hugs and kisses just made my day!

things your cellphone might blurt out ...

when you least expect it ...




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Good its back on

Good

Kinda scary when you're home alone

I hid in a condom

CORNER!

damn autocorrect!

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and one more just for shits and giggles...




oh gracious mercy!  Yep, I guess autocorrect could be your worst enema!

Have a gr8 day ya'll.

Ah! Those Were The Days~

 I've not always been a paleface, actually one summer in particular when I was a young sassy lassie, I had the prettiest golden tan for miles around, thanks to this little beauty.  The electric lawnmower!



I can't remember the color of it per se, but what I do remember was that big long orange cord that you had to make sure you didn't run over! Mom didn't trust too many people to handle the yard mowing with the Sunbeam.  I'm not sure whatever happened to that electric lawnmower! what a novel idea for the times, huh? that was probably the same year we got the silver pom pom Christmas tree with the spinning wheel of color, remember either of these?

This lawnmower even had a flip handle, push it one way and then just flip the handle and back and forths, but it was always having to move the electric cord too! I sweated out the task of our big yard many times with that Sunbeam and kept all my fingers and toes intact! :)

With my small yard here, maybe I should invest back in one of these lawnmowers but considering the price of electricity nowdays maybe not such a wise investment!  ... nah!

however, I'd love to have a silver pompom tree once again,  Everytime I found one on E-Bay I always got outbid, I think its rigged!  I found the tree rather space aged for the times! as far as lights it was a bummer (this was back when they were big and clunky and hot too) but who needs lights, right? when you have a color wheel!  I spent many hours in awe of it.  Also, like the lawnmower I'm not sure what happened to the tree either!

Today's Forecast

sounds like the weather we're having.

SOS (same ole shiz) ... Hot and humid again, with a side of occasional rain!

which only makes things worse.  Its like living inside a dang sauna!

This weather has been way too humid and sticky for my liking, and unless I have to run errands or be at a water source, I'd rather not venture outside the palace gates here!

My cooling system has run nonstop and this window air conditioner unit upstairs doesn't even keep my bedroom cool enough through the day and I find I need to wait until about 10 to even try to lounge there, but the downstairs is butt-ass cold!

I grew up without air conditioning and bunked on the 2nd floor, and then as an adult with two kids moved into a 3rd floor apartment without any air conditioning at all, and believe me ... when the heat index is up like this and people have no air, they get nasty uncomfortable and mean, especially if you are living in an apartment complex like I did for low income housing and HUD subsidized rent.  I was going to radiologic technology school and in the summer months, on any given night you could hear the outbursts and the arguments, people outside all hours of the night, no doubt due to the irritability of having to live in such god-awful temperatures.  At the time I moved in, I didn't realize it did not have central air, and if you put in a window air conditioner you had to pay extra for it and of course that meant you'd have to purchase the air conditioner too, which wasn't in my budget at the time.  I lived my first summer without air conditioner and it was murderous!

At those times in my youth and early adulthood air conditioning was a luxury.  To me its an absolute necessity!

Some like it hot? Nah, I like it cold and frigid!

so what is playin' at The Lounge? ... rainy day jazz ... outside its hot, inside its raining ...