so quiet...

 and still...

its rained all weekend.  I seem to be drowning in the silence of it.

Sundays should be lingering, unhurried, and full of possibilities ...

so are the...The Waves ...of our lives..

new dance craze....

 "woozy to the left side" ... seems to be my symptoms for the last two days.  Lordy.

Its sad when you call your doctor and you can't get in till Tuesday.  Having symptoms without any cause you can put your finger on is a little scary.  Not to mention if other symptoms develop, acc to FAST protocol, I might have to hit the ER if I'm able to.  I have combed through other etiologies, such as dehydration or ear issues, or low blood sugar, which could all be possibilities I suppose--so I'm gonna force fluids, see if things improve.  My dad had a history of mini-strokes, so I'm a little concerned, you never know what can happen.  I've had full blown vertigo before due to an inner ear infection I didn't know I had, so I know its not that.  Oh well, if I stroke out, and never post again,  try not to miss me...LOL...

like anybody reads this stuff...

ha! I can't count how many times I've done this...

 

well I was off Monday, and its today Wednesday and I'm down 3 hours on the week.  I may need to work a couple of hours in somewhere before Friday. Work has been slow it seems maybe because of the holiday who knows. 

The Innocents

 Been watching this supernatural/drama that wasn't too bad over the weekend.  Didn't like how it left off but there'll be more to unravel.  Watched The Sinner too, pretty good.  Gonna watch Shameless next (says its irrelevent and raunchy...right up my alley! haha)

Oscar-nominated actor William H. Macy stars as Frank Gallagher, a single father of six who spends much of his free time drinking at bars. The Gallagher children -- led by oldest daughter Fiona (Emmy Rossum), who takes on much of the child-rearing responsibility due to her mother's absence -- manage to raise themselves in spite of Frank's lack of parenting and unusual parenting style when he does choose to act like a father. The drama is an adaptation of the BAFTA Award-winning British show of the same name.

Anybody watching this?

twiddling my thumbs here ...

 

I am not surprised to say the least, however, you'd think after a holiday there'd be work on the system, but its been a whole hour and nearly 30 minutes since logging in and I've logged only 55 minutes of work.  Its gonna be a long day at this rate, ugh!

somebody offer me a better job, will ya?!  fun coordinator...lol...comic relief...

update:  at 10:30 a.m., I have logged only 1 hour and 55 minutes of work.  How long will it take me to reach 8 hours of logged work.  Go ahead all your mathematicians and figure that one out!

1 hr 55 minutes  for sitting 3.5 hours.  1.5 x 6 = sitting here 8 more hours? damn it that puts me working till 6:30 tonight? haha ... that shit ain't gonna happen!

Cleansing my karmic house in September...

Yep, time to take a look back and a leap forward.  Time to truly let go of those things that no longer serve me. Time to walk between worlds...the spiritual and the physical...so to speak...



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Gotta do a soul purge every now and then...take a really long look at oneself...the shining outward and the inward shadow self.  I have to try to remember to be grateful...grateful for every experience, both good and bad...act with love towards everyone no matter which is in my nature to be this way...check my motives at the door trying to make sure they come from a place of love ... keep my attitude in check (that's a hard one sometimes)... and always forgive..forgiving is always the hardest but the most necessary to move on...I do it for me, not for the other person, they are on their own journey. I choose to carry or release my burdens as my soul dictates...

I find it hard sometimes to "turn the other cheek" when disappointed in others who are behaving badly towards me for what I can gather no good reason other than being in their own heads and going through their own challenges and purges...but that is theirs, its not mine...they have to own it ... just like me when I get my ass in a tizz and throw negativity around its on me.  I do own that because I know karma has no timeline...it ebbs & flows...but it will come around and  I wanta be on the receiving end of good karma.   💕

Happy Labor Day to yuns~!

Sunday, Sunday!

 that Isabella she takes more pictures than any kid I know...we had a really good late afternoon together.  :) Went to a family picnic ... it was good to see my sister...Isabella had a good time too. 

It seems that friends took most of my weekend...one is needy without a car, and who bitched because she spent $10 bucks on a microwave, then sworn up and down it wouldn't work...it did work...it was just the operator...blew up my phone over it...whining and complaining...I was ready to give her her $10 dollars so she would just shut up and stop whining...She said it was missing a leg too, if she had known that she wouldn't have bought it...I told her to use some redneck ingenuity and prop that son of a gun up...then she asks with that?? while youngest is ringing in whining about not having a car and wanting to go to the family thing, however it turned into can you get Rosalie some formula until tomorrow...of course I would and did, but she never contacted me today about the family gathering :((

and then Bill came down from Ohio...spent the night in the spare bedroom, went back today about noon.  He has COPD and asthma, and always coughs and hacks up and out gunk...to be quite honest made me nauseous.  ugh.  Talk about a whiner too..at times short with me even...I did suggest that perhaps he see someone himself to give him a sounding board of support.  We grew up in the same small town..our families knew each other...he's like a big brother-- but Lord, he needs to have a frank discussion with Carla, his wife...guess they are having some issues.  He said she has become more verbally aggressive and hostile since taking some new medication. She is burdened with end stage kidney disease, her lifespan is shortened, she's looking at amputation of a toe, perhaps her leg...and is shutting Bill out.  He's just a wreck. They are both my friends, its hard to see them at such odds.  Nothing I can do really; they live 4 hrs away.  . 

Anyway I didn't feel too appreciated...nor do I feel rested, so its a good thing I'm off tomorrow...I am going to spoil myself all day by doing absolutely nothing for nobody!

insulting to the eyes...

 

tsk tsk...always wear a brazzier in public ladies! ... holey moley.  :(((