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Well this is one way to wash up iffin' you ain't got no water (yes! I do know good grammar when I care to use it!)...and who would have thunk to use an old Mr. Coffee to heat it up...

Yes sireedy! that's redneck ingenuity right there...plus an electrical requirement..LOL! 

disheartened

 another staff member at our local office bites the dust yesterday...





He was just told his position was eliminated...whose next? its like standing in front of a firing squad just waiting...dodge the bullet now, what about a week from now..a month...its a good thing I don't suffer from anxiety or panic...in the back of my mind I know whatever I'm dealt I'm a survivor...come what may.  His job was more important than mine was and I've worked with this person for years, being there 14 myself.  These are scary times we live in.

not to mention on the television to learn of two bombs going off at the Boston Marathon...people hurt, some dead...lives changed forever...

addendum:  Today we all received an email informing us that there would be no more cuts from our local office.  Maybe a little sigh of relief momentarily, but still makes you aware that you are not that important in the big scheme of things; they don't care you have anything to fall back on, whether you have relatives you can depend on, what your home life circumstances are..or maybe they did take this into consideration at the local level...I don't know but at this point I'm just glad to have a job.  Some of my staff would gladly give up benefits if they could just stay employed...yes, its a sad state of affairs.

Unrequited Love...

 




In the Spring rain he came to me,
It was beautiful, unforgettable~
Its been rainy days since he walked away
four years ago 
almost to the day
I loved him without reservation or restraint 
taking him into the folds of my life, 
while I was kept an outsider in his...

once a passionate falsetto, now falls silent. 

not even a kiss good-bye.

Innocence...


  Photograph Untitled by Елена Карнеева on 500px

I really love this capture and the innocence of a child's curiosity.

original photo here; also this can be purchased.

Cats eyes...

viewing the city skyline at a distance

I cannot remember the link for this pic, but when you enlarge it, its awesome!

I always am mesmerized by looking at my cats eyes! They are so beautiful really and Sissy's glow green at night like a neon sign, its crazy scary! So here I am googling information about cats eyes. 

Unlike human eyes, which work best in day light, the cat’s eyes must function well in extremely low light condition and as such are well suited to an animal that is predominantly nocturnal and crepuscular in activity.  Isn't that the truth, you'd think they'd sleep when you do, but they're all up night chasing anything that moves including car lights that might happen to peer in your window.  In darkness, cats eyes are able to function in approximately one-sixth of the light needed for human vision.  In low light levels the cats pupil must be able to open as wide as possible, but also be able to contract to very small size to protect the sensitive retina in bright sunlight. In human eyes, this size variation of the pupil is controlled by a circular ciliary muscle, but this limits the amount of size variation. In cats however, the same process is controlled by two, shutter-like ciliary muscles, which gives the cat it’s characteristic slit-like pupil in bright light conditions. All cats pupils are therefore elliptical, however some, notable the ‘Big Cats’, appear more circular when dilated.

The size of the cats eye is relatively larger than those found in human, this enables a larger pupil and therefore more light to enter the eye. Generally, the lens is more curved enabling sharper focusing even at the edges of the lens. The size of the anterior chamber and the curvature of the cornea is also greater, which helps more light to be refracted onto the light-sensitive retina.

Another feature, which enabled the amount of light hitting the retina to be increased, is the tapetum lucidum. This is positioned at the back of the cat's eye, behind the retina and acts like a mirror, reflecting light back onto the light sensor cells in the retina. This gives the cats eyes the characteristic night-time glow when they are caught in a beam of light. Yep, this causes that green scary glow, acting like a mirror.  I always wondered if it were harmful to shine a light directly at them but obviously it just hit the mirror and reflects back off right back atcha!

Do cats see in color?   I was told that cats saw only black and white, but recent research has shown evidence that suggests that cats may possess a degree of color vision after all.  It’s now believed that cats can see different shades of the colors blue and green, but that other colors are not all perceived as we see them.  Cats only have two types of cones (photoreceptor cells) in the retina of the eye that are responsible for color vision. There are three types of cones, and cats are missing the cones that correspond to the color red.  Humans have all three, allowing us to perceive more color and intensity of color. It’s believed that cats have a limited ability to distinguish the difference between reds and greens at all – which is actually a form of color blindness found in humans as well. So, no, cats do not see the world in strictly black and white form, but they do appear to suffer from a form of color-blindness.

Too Much Information...


Pt has hypertrophy of the anal papilla which was prolapsed and excised today in the office. Really? it appears I'm on butts today...this reminds me of when I was an x-ray tech and we had to be in the "barium enema" room all week for fluoro...

All this talk about assholes, is just way too much! and before breakfast, too!

Yes I have been having to listen to surgical reports, some of the details I wished I didn't have to hear, and the visualization...well...I'm glad my stint is over!

Its Friday, bring on the wine!

Fearless...





this is a 'sick' photo, found here while out browsing for something totally unrelated...

talk about fearless.

I wished I could be a little more fearless, but it seems I've become complacent to my surroundings, sucky job, and boring, mundane life. If I could go back and redo my life over, I definitely would steer myself into furthering my education first, the heck with that love stuff. I'm thinking about taking some classes, but I'm not sure I fit in the "spoiled" generation and I can't decide what I want to be when I grow up...LOL. I do feel lonely without a significant other in my life and looking for love would be equivalent to that cat jumping off the ledge into oblivion. Besides do people really fall in love in their 50s? be serious. Yes, I want to be fearless, perhaps I would give it all for love, but somehow I fear I will be living under the bridge as a troll, wishing for a cardboard box and a blanket! My life is stale. and shit...I've gone and depressed myself. Cheer me up, please!!!

Third time this year...



Isabella has been on the Honor Roll! I'm very proud of her...!  being in 5th grade isn't easy (so says Bella)...and then add onto that she is a Safety Patrol monitor.  Everything she does is scrutinized and she has to set an example, and I know she's learned a lot this year and been penalized for nearly every infraction, some of which did not have to do specifically with patrol.  Their Safety Patrol program is set up to deduct points but as I found out there is no positive point reward system.  

Fact is, in this particular school, there are a lot of disadvantaged and perhaps behaviorally challenged kids.  When a kid is nominated for safety patrol, its a learning experience for most the first time, and they have to learn responsibility, not only for themselves, but for others and following extra rules, and not all kids are as mature as others.  I believe there should be a balance, not just a negative, and when the kid gets to zero points after starting with 20, they kick them off patrol.  What does this do to a child's self-esteem when they are kicked off safety patrol team after being hand-selected to serve on Safety Patrol? 

Considering most infractions are 3 to 4 points apiece, one can see how quickly these 20 points can be taken down to zero.  The deduction of points begins to create negativity and weighs on them to the point they just don't care or want to quit the safety patrol altogether.  Isabella got to that point, and that's when I called the Safety Patrol board and I told them it is not a choice for her to get kicked off or quit; she started this program and she was handpicked to be on it, so I expect her to finish it out.  At this point I inquired about patrols being able to earn points back for good behavior; for example, not being late, always wearing their safety patrol belts, going beyond their duty, or making the honor roll, etc...and I plan to voice this to the school board as I don't think this is unreasonable.

If you've got a 10 and 11 year old you know that they are not the most responsible, and at this age to be kicked off after getting to zero would be a terrible blow not to mention having to forefeit a trip at the end of the year.  Isabella is down to 3 points but has served on patrol for nearly 8 months, some infractions did not have anything to do with patrol duties per se.   She has worked fundraisers, and its my job to make sure she gets to go on that trip, and they'll be lucky if she wants to sign up for another year.  I hope she does because I see she has matured more than I thought she would, so its been a gr8 learning experience for her.

Its too bad her parents aren't noticing the strides she made, not only at school but on a personal level.